I have always given importance to relations in my life. For family & friends. From my childhood i have learned that these are based on love and trust among the family members or in between friends. then it doesn't matter what they do, what they don't do and where they belongs to. We have to trust them and be with them in their every decision. This is what my phenomena of relations based on. But, don't know why, life show me a different face of every relation. May be it is my misunderstandings with them or my over expectations from every relation I had. Or may be I don deserve to be loved and cared.
I m very proud of my self, i m a beloved sister & wife. but then, I want to ask if I demand anything more, then everyone get. Every daughter is proud of her father as father is daughter's first love. I always found a man, who left his wife ( i don't know why) and children and never turned back to his even youngest daughter. I always miss him in those moments when i needed him most. He never went for my parents-teacher meet. He even didn't know which subject I have done graduation in. :( . He was never there, when I succeed, when I fail. I don't know and even don wanna know the reason because still, he never turned up to know and never will be. I always find my friends and relatives celebrating every moment with their father. If parents had taken any decision for their lives, may I know whether the children have any right to know the reason, why did that little girl from age of 3, start missing her father, if he is still alive. I know there were several arguments behind this. But, my question is, separation is their decision, not mine. Because of their decision i got suffered, in so many ways.
And about the another half, she never cares. Sometime i think, maybe i m really adopted but not. Eventually, I resembles them. She always blamed her children for every failure or whatever she face in her life. Is it really true?? and I m amazed that still I cant blame any of them for any event of my life. She didnt accepted me from the starting.. I can see that ignorance. Is that me who is the reason for their separation. She never cares, like other mothers do, how i feel, how i look, want i want etc. She never knows that Salman Khan is my first love and Gurmeet is my latest crush. m so unlucky that unable to share any Good- bad news with her as she never cares.. Why?? And most amazing thing i just think the opposite way she did, for my own children.(Whenever i have ). If i love then, atleast tell them every now and then and tells them that m always there. I have faced every failure alone.
But on the other hand i m blessed with best siblings and husband. in the world. My siblings bought me to this position. Always tried there harder so that i ll not miss those precious moments. I am and will be always thankful to them.
These are my feelings for my parents so no REGRET at all.
